I’m a terrible masochist. If something doesn’t turn out how I want it to, I implode. I sulk, I get angry, I stare into space thinking about how useless I am. When I do this, it’s not just me that suffers, it’s those I love, too. They have to deal with the bad moods even though they’ve done nothing wrong.
It hardly seems fair, does it?
Yet it still came as a surprise to me when someone suggested I stop punishing myself when I don’t reach my goal.
Because it doesn’t change anything.
When you punish yourself for not reaching your goals, you hurt yourself. You hurt those around you. But you don’t end up any better off.
The Beauty of Bouncing Back
When you hit rock bottom, you have two options.
The first is to shut down.
The second is to find the trampoline at the bottom and bounce back.
I’ve done both.
I shut down for well over a year when I was 22, and I will never fully forgive myself for it. I wasted a long time feeling numb instead of learning and growing.
I was too scared to leave the house and take advantage of the opportunities around me. It wasn’t until I started my MA that I found the trampoline.
I won’t lie to you — bouncing back took a long time, and I’m not fully sure that I’m there yet (three years later).
But being on my way towards the fresh, clean air away from the dankness at the bottom of the well? It feels good.
Before I could bounce back, though, I had to learn not to punish myself when things went wrong.
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Take one of my friends. She was recently fired from her job. When she told me, I was really worried. I waited by the phone for her to ring me, and dropped everything when she called.
She didn’t sound how I expected.
She was surprisingly calm.
Because she’s been fired before. She knows the drill. She knows it’s not the end of the world. And she knows she can get back on the horse again.
When she got home, she played with her cat, did some knitting, then went to stay with her parents for a couple of days. All things she enjoys. All things that help her to relax.
And instead of dwelling on the past, she saw losing her job as an opportunity. She’s now looking to set up her own freelance writing/marketing business, and I couldn’t be more proud.
Why you should reward yourself when you don’t reach your goals
It’s important to take some time to yourself to process — and possibly mourn — what’s happened. However, keep in mind that the longer you take to do so, the harder it is to get back on the horse.
And the horse won’t wait for you forever.
On the other hand, if you do something you enjoy — for instance, I like to sew when I’m feeling down — then you’re doing something that makes you happy, instead of dwelling on your mistakes. Then, when you fail in the future, those failures aren’t as intimidating anymore. You learn not to associate failing with the overwhelming darkness that comes with self-hatred. You associate it with the lighter feeling of doing something that you love.
Not only that, but doing something you love after you’ve failed helps you to relax. It relieves the stress, and calms your mind. There’s really no reason you shouldn’t reward yourself for failing.
When all is over and done, it’s time to move on.
Where you move on to is up to you, but the important thing is that you learn from your failure.
What could you have done differently?
How could you have changed the outcome?
What have you learnt?
If you take the time to think about all of this, you’ll surprise yourself.
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And the more you see those failures as lessons, the easier they’ll be to cope with.